There are many gifts we give in life to those we hold dear to us. Material object, sometimes with depth, and others just to make others giggle a little.
In my life, I have given many of those types of gifts, both of depth and humor.
Recently I have discovered that some find the gifts I have given with depth and sentiment are merely to them, humorous. They find an emotional past, laughable. Looking at those souls, I find a few tears, and hope one day they find their way.
I my opinion, it can take a lifetime to get to know someone, and you may never truly know who they are. In my case, a few people have taken the voyage, and in their cases, I see them, and they see me. In other cases, people have said they could see me, when really they were not even looking in my direction. Some could say it was all a waste of time. I say, no time wasted, merely a lesson learned.
My life has been anything but easy, but in my time, at what I would say a young age, have come out of a lot of darkness, and faught for what is right in the world. I have made mistakes, and tripped over a few potholes, but never attacked maliciously. I hate no one in this world, even those that hate me purely.
So I sit back, I take in the view and realize my success in life, and see nothing but more to come in the future. I sometimes look over my shoulder and wonder, what if, could I, should I, did I...and I then turn back and realize...yes I did.
Wow, I understand you completely. Though some people take those memories and gifts and hold them, cherish them, and hide them away in the closet of their mind/heart, scared of losing it. It could be a text message (check), a voicemail (check), or a simple little token that you gave them (check), that they hold dear. And you may never know that you've touched someone that deeply, because perhaps something prevented them from saying something or you've parted ways for one reson or another. One thing I learned is never discount those that walk away. Sometimes, it's easier to walk away then to stay and fight. Am I making sense? I hope I'm not reading too far into this post (for all I know, you could be talking about dry cleaning). It's too early for an emo comment... I need coffee. ;-)
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bry you are so strong...
ReplyDeleteps-i like FCRs comment, i hear that.