A long Holiday weekend has come to an end. I spent a little over 24 hours sitting in my apartment, from Saturday afternoon, until I left today to come to work. My neck sore from lounging on the couch far too long. My mind numb from far too much television.
I have such a hunger to be creative. My mind constantly flowing over these past 5 days away from work. My body sort of paralyzed from taking action. I am a hypocrite of my own good advice. Life is too short, the world is at your fingertips, possibilities are really very endless.
I sit here at my desk, nestled inside this office. I wonder, why? I have a genuine heart, I care enough, I love truly and unconditionally. I sit here numb. I do not feel anything.
Our world has become so dependent on technology. I enjoy, and utilize all that it has to offer, while see how it paralyzes us all. People no longer do the random drive by to say hello. People are so against having their space invaded by the unexpected knock on the door. Funny, it is rarely offensive when someone IM's you without a call, or email to check on your availability.
I do not understand this world as much as I used to. I have spent countless hours of my life looking for answers. I believe now, I was better off living without wondering. Wondering and finding now leaves me feeling like an outcast.
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