...enemies within me

I opened my eyes this morning, listening to the rain, shivering under the covers, I rolled over and pushed my face deep into the pillow. Moments passed, and strings of tears fell from my eyes, immediately soaked up by the cushion holding my face. I feel empty, I feel alone, I hurt too.

My feet reached the cold floor, causing a frigid icy chill to race up my spine..my eyes opened with a jolt. Yeah, it was another morning. Another Monday morning, and today I was feeling beaten and bruised, and the torture just continued as I walked the icy floor.

I stood for what seemed like hours, feeling the warmth of the hot shower fall against my back. I stood there, blank stare on my face. Thinking so much, yet no thoughts connected. I turned to face the water, trying to warm my heart, artificially. I feel cold, I feel alone, I need warmth, I hurt too...My heart bleeds...Days and nights I fight through..I stood there, my feet still cold...

My enemy within me, fighting to hold me back. I cry too, I smile too, I weep for you.