1.31.2006

moments with you




    unimaginable, the energy that surrounds
    laying back, silent in this dream, the strength of one multiplying
    the soft cushion, comforting
    your warmth, enveloping
    a whirl-wind inside my chest, tight then smooth
    dizzying, then settling
    unexplainable, these moments that have passed, numb, smiles, shivers, you
    can you see, are you looking
    night moves forward, time stands still
    refusing to blink while staring inside
    i see your soul
    i taste the air that surrounds you

1.17.2006

28 Random things about (b)ryan

1. I love the smell of freshly washed sheets
2. I look forward to guiltless days spent on the couch
3. I love the feeling when my sock slides off my foot in my sneaker
4. I love wearing buttons on my jeans
5. I adore the color orange
6. I still get slightly upset during the holidays about the whole "Santa isn't real" nonsense
7. I once tried to hide on the school bus when I was too young to go to school, cause I was the youngest and everyone else got to go
8. I threw a fit the first day of Kindergarten and couldn't get on the bus, so my mother had to drive me there (silly huh)
9. I once drank a half of a bottle of bacardi rum when I was 13 and threw up in the woods all night...I thought it was like beer and learned that lesson the hard way. (besides, what was I doing drinking at 13...)
10. I used to get excited when I was younger when my sisters friend Erin would come to visit..she always made me feel like a person...Love you Erin :) (and I still get excited when she comes to visit)
11. I love mens ankles
12. I once argued with my second grade teacher about coloring outside of the lines. I couldn't understand what difference it made, considering we would be cutting the picture out anyway. She made me sit in the coat closet.
13. During my senior year of highschool I was mistaken for my sister on SEVERAL different occasions
14. I love the feeling of my honeybear coming to bed after I've already been sleeping
15. I love waking up to the sound of rain
16. I love sitting on my Grandmothers front porch and seeing her being busy in the kitchen
17. I love West Milford when the leaves start to change (sometime around sweater season :) )
18. I like to smell my food before I eat it
19. I love taking rides with no destination ( especially with you Rachel...miss you)
20. I love finding Tobias sleeping in the bathtub...he is such a silly kitty
21. I am a known neat freak with tiny piles of clutter in places people can't see. I am a "closet" clutter lover.
22. My mother still has the ability to make me feel like I am 10 years old...sometimes it makes me smile on the inside.
23. I like to have the TV or Radio on when I am home even if I am not in the room
24. I take a shower every hour if possible when I am sick.
25. I love discovering peoples odd habits and seeing how it makes them who they are.
26. I love the sound of trains
27. I love ceiling fans
28. Most of all, I love falling in love. It awakes a part of you that sometimes you forget it there.

So there you have it...(28) things about me, inspired by Auntslappy...and the fact that I fastly approach 29...my final run as a twenty something.

1.02.2006

Dude, where's my best friend?






Saying our goodbye's could not have been any harder, but at the last moments on Friday night and Saturday morning at breakfast I sat with each moment clear minded and happy. Friends are so much more than we ever realize. Rachel Mae, always a free spirit on a constant voyage, something that makes me admire you, and gain constant strength and knowledge...as well simply share such a close bond. This bond has taught me that anything in life is not only at our fingertips, but that the process is the most important part of the voyage. The destination, nothing more than a new starting point. I'm not sure if I could ever vocalize to anyone the tears I shed as I watched you walk off into the airport. Tears tangled in real saddness and pure happiness. The simple reality of it all being, I hate seeing you leave, cry at the thought of this chapter closing...but know the chapters to come hold nothing less than continued memories dancing in that ring of joy....In a perfect world we could keep all those that live in our hearts at our fingertips...but living in a perfect world is impossible, and what fun would it be anyway, right... I am so incredibly proud of you Ray Ray, and eventhough you are a mere plane ride away, I will still miss you imensely...

you a beautiful soul, an unconditional friend...and I love you dearly

I smile when I look at these photos...smile, smile, smile