Inside this Blue eye of mine

"Does anything change in the sky when we understand that there is no Big Dipper?"
-John Goldstein

The continuation of my life, follows through thoughts such as that quoted above. Can we believe in that we cannot touch, see, smell or hear. Often I find my thoughts tangled in the idea that yes, of course they can. I still have moments of disbelief, regardless.

Reflecting on the years of my life, a series of thoughts occur. Following down paths lined in hope and faith, my curiosity is awoke by the idea that inside this path, have I any proof or understanding to continue to feed this hope? Strength and courage only pursue so far, when solidity is absent.

I am sitting on my cushion, taking the five minutes of time. Running fiercely away inside my head, visioning it with eyes closed tight. I merely blinked one eye, with a simple lift in the corner of my mouth.

Six Forty Five

rainy saturday
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Six forty five on a Saturday morning. I guess the early to rise all week as bled into my weekend. Usually I can hold onto the dream world much longer and sleep through the rise of the sun, and awake after life has already began its routine.

This fine morning I laid in bed, listened as the rain fell and random cars passed. Few birds chirping outside my window, making Tobias at full alert. My body completely comfortable, my brain semi restless. Powerless over the process, I gave in, and slid out from under the covers.

Complete darkness, with the exception of the screen at which I stare. I contemplate which direction my day of freedom will take me. I embrace the endless options, while feel satisfied if they all were to be left unfulfilled.

Reading over my words from a moment ago, I see how my tired eyes and sleeping thoughts make little sense. It has been some times since I have released a random thought, I figure what a better time than now.

Smelling the coffee brew in the other room, I find comfort and peace. There really is nothing like sitting at home, rainy day...drinking coffee...talking random crap on a blog that no one reads.

If you ever find yourself awake, while the rest of the world sleeps...I say embrace it...alot goes on, when we think no one is looking....poor guy outside just lost his umbrella to a gust of wind, and I bet he thought no one saw it happen...but I did, and he will never know.

Five Minutes

Stop, sit down and take five minutes. This seems to be something most of us find nearly impossible to do in life. Constantly struggling to get where we want to be, fulfilling what we need to make us happy, seeking an impossible level of satisfaction.

I struggle in understanding this, just the same as probably most of the population of the living and breathing. Most of the situations we find confusion with can be solved by simply stop trying to reach resolution. Understanding and accepting, without reservation or expectation.

It is often the obvious that we stand blind to in darkness. Why should we have to practice something, when it’s point is blatant? Dismissing that what we believe we understand continuously, rather that viewing its power and allowing its assisting compassion and reality to bring a moment of peace. I live guilty of this and consciously seek the alternate route it will prove to open up to my life as well as the life of all those I come into contact with.

At first when posed with this Five Minutes of sitting down still, free of any movement I thought this is quite simple, and anyone can do it. Within the first forty-five seconds my mind began to tell me to move to simply find a more comfortable position. I fought this urge while silently contemplating how hard it really is to take these simple Five Minutes out of my life to help find endless amounts of peace.

The plain reality being, Five Minutes is no longer that Five Seconds. It will cost you nothing.